Like I mentioned in my previous blog, there are certain jobs I want. One of them was to get into video games. I’ve got spiral upon spiral of notes for ideas. I’m looking into taking a Full Sail course in game design. All this stuff. And yet, now? I don’t know.
Last night, someone who’s actually in the industry told me that I’d be a terrible tester. The tester position, of course, is basically the bottom rung, starting position that a lot of people in the industry use to plant their feet. More than likely it would be the one that I’d have to utilize.
I thought I’d be able to do it. I read everything that a tester has to do. I looked up all the various scenarios that people online have posted they’ve done. They all seemed like cake compared to the monotony of my current job.
But…just like that. With a simple comment, my will to get into the industry has pretty much died. Maybe it’s a passing thing. Like an infection more than a death. But, it really seems like each time I get close to this, something discourages me and, honestly, I don’t have enough faith in myself to deal with it anymore.
I don’t know. Maybe I’m screwed. I mean, when the people I care about don’t have faith in me, what’s going to happen when I have to interview with someone who doesn’t even know me?
Reporting live from the center of self doubt,